Can a" retrained " left-handed person retrain and become left-handed again?
I've used my right hand all my life, because everyone who taught me was right-handed. I thought everyone's right hand was the leader. Once I went to the doctor because of back pain, the doctor told me: "Why do you do everything with your right hand? You have a weak one." He ran a couple of tests. As it turns out, I'm left-handed. The arm, leg, eye, and ear are left-sided. I thought: I don't care, I'm already doing pretty well, even if I don't do everything as accurately and accurately as right-handed people. But at the age of 23, nature took its toll, and I started doing everything with my left hand spontaneously. And then I decided that I would develop my left hand. Since I like to finish everything, I am a perfectionist, I started my training with the attitude that I am left-handed and will study the behavior of left-handers. After a while, I just started to get mentally tired, but my pride wouldn't let me give up and go back to my right hand. After some time, I began to realize that absolutely all people (left-handers,right-handers) are different, and the fact that I studied and repeated their habits only confused me, because if it can be convenient for them, then I don't. Sometimes on some days I feel completely calm and confident in my left hand, but these are 1-2 days a month and they pass quickly. And everything turns into follow-up training. In August, it will be two years since I retrain back to being a southpaw. I can see progress, but it passes very quickly. If I don't do something that I can easily do with my right hand, then I start to freak out and get angry, thinking that I shouldn't have started all this. Recently, I have been experiencing mental problems, as if my right ego is starting to struggle with a new left one, which often causes headaches. I can't just go back to my right hand, I keep thinking that the end is near, how dare I give up like this, and through this torment, what I dreamed of will appear. I need the opinion of someone who knows what's going on with me. Can I retrain again?