How to believe in God? That is, how to intentionally force yourself to believe if you grew up an atheist under the influence of propaganda and psychological trauma.
Now I am 22 years old, of which the last 8-9 years have been spent under the auspices of ardent atheism. Every year, the perception of the world became tougher, danger was seen everywhere, and sometimes even traumatic events occurred. At the moment, everything seems to have settled down, but life still seems to me to be a chaotic and meaningless horror. I have nothing to plug the need for the sacred, the sacred, and the immutable.